Got my new house all secured today, sans signing the lease.
exciting.

Yana came home yesterday, i got her from the airport during work, and later we shared a bottle of wine.

new keyboard at work is loud to type on.

Tonight is David Bazan show, he will be playing in someones living room. i look forward to magic.

Fuckk you

for liiiiinnnnnnngeriinnng

I have the feeling that i am pissing off every single one of my friends.
Becoming a shut in,
kind of.

Im not that shut in, I just see my parents on the weekend and only have one day off.
at least thats what i tell myself, i guess.

Work is long, and most of the time i would rather hole up in my cozy house than go "out"
like i said, im not much of a do-er. I would much rather stay in and make some shit, than go to a bar.
i dont like to dance
i dont like the dance music
I dont like kareoke
and i dont like people.

its not that i dont want to hang out with you, Its that i have better music, better booze and better seating, at my house. You can smoke WITH your drink, put on vinyl and sit on the floor under Xmas lights.

where's bad?

Im sorry you'd rather go out than come over, its not like I dont go out ever, i like to play pool, i like going to shows. but weekends are hell out, especially while schools in.

Im sorry for being disappointing, but i never liked to dance, i still dont. Im not into crowds, or being drunk in public. just dont take it personally, please.

Am I being selfish? I just dont like going out that much. :( I am sorry I am lame, I dont think i should have to feel bad about not being into something.

how did this week manage to be just a little better tha the last?

http://disconaivete.tumblr.com/post/4081048152/tfl-ni



ehhhhhhhh

this place is soooo horrrible

sometimes you dont like the way things start to feel,
and it tells you not to move forward.

I spend all day in this room, hearing about the weather.



and ive got a knack for ruining what might have been a good thing.


I am not a thrill-seeker. please stop telling me who you know.

I want you to know that im getting over your damage done.

fuck you.

The past wont rest til we jump the fence and leave it behind....

everything is surprisingly the same, despite change.

I think i used to care about a lot, far less.
now i care about less, far more...


we'll see.