Jeane, If youre ever in Portland....

Casiotone for the Painfully Alone played in Tucson at Solar Culture last night, and let me tell you this: It was fucking amazing.

Yes that is my Twinkle Echo LP, and yes, he signed it.
I don't know why my scanner is only making black and white. sad.

Bitter malcontent with a heart of gold

I want to see the whole thing, I expect its beautiful.



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Thank you, John Hodgeman. "Bitter malcontent with a heart of gold"


also, this:


Written by Charlene Li and Josh Bernoff (Forrester Researchers) discuss: ning, twitter, facebook, blogspot, social networking sites, blogging, micro blogging and how it is changing the way business is done, the ways we stay connected, how businesses can get feedback from consumers seconds after a proposal INSANITY! I caught the last 10 mins of an interview with these two on the radio last wednsday i think, it was utterly fascinating.
http://www.amazon.com/Groundswell-Winning-Transformed-Social-Technologies/dp/1422125009/ref=si3_rdr_bb_product

Just spent the last 22hours with Phil...it was pretty great...

Tucson is filled with smoke and I don't know what I'm doing with my life.

New:

• I just talked to my boss and she told me I can leave work for up to 30 days and stay employed (this is extendable if need be)
• My dad thinks I'm stupid for wanting to move out.
• I will be receiving $3,000 in early September. (ask for details privately)
• selling my bass guitar tomorrow.
• I still really want to go on this trip.
• I still need to move out.
• Im still freaking out about my math final.
• All claims from my accident on May 5th where I rear ended an SUV on tucson bouevard have been dropped and my driving record is clean once again.
  

the west coast has been traumatized.

I've been invited on a cross-country road trip.
by cross country I mean: Tucson to Austin, to Chicago, to Seattle, down the west coast back to Tucson. With many stops in between of course those are just a few really big ones.
I'm conflicted as to if I should accept this offer. It sounds amazing. It would be the greatest thing ever to be able to travel the country and take photographs all over the U.S. and be free for like an entire month.
I want to go, really really want to...maybe I should just do it...but I would be abandoning so many responsibilities.
This dosnt feel like the kind of opportunity that will just happen by again, and if I don't go now when I'm 18, without a steady career and still living at home when will I?!?!?!?? right?! so I should just do something for myself and live my life. have a fucking adventure. right?
probably not.
but id really love to.

don't really know how to feel about anything right now.

tonight was really weird.

I don't like myself very much.

"I used to want to change the world, now I just wanna leave the room with a little dignity."

This could not be more true.

The past few days have been little more than a series of disappointments.
This sounds bad, but it could be worse and by no means am I complaining.

Getting kicked out of the Loft last night for smuggling outside alcohol was pretty humiliating...but at least we only got scolded for that and not for the underage thing....it could have been far worse. I feel pretty crappy about the whole situation.

SO! instead of watching The Shining, as was planned, Rachel and I moseyed to Casa and picked up Tarnation, it was AMAZING. and really fucking intense.

Anyway, let me tell you this, Iron Man, deff worth seeing if you are into that kind of crap, it was pretty decent. SpeedRacer on the other hand, don't even think about it unless you were really into the show. Seriously, it was pretty terrible, like a genuinely bad movie....and I enjoyed it thoroughly.


Recently its become ever true that secretarial work is calling to me. I truly long to be someones bitch....I mean personal assistant...I love that shit. Today I was bored at work and decided it would be cool to pick up the Sunday paper and look at the job ads, this I did. Even circled a few that caught my fancy... then I forgot said paper with circled job ads at work....oops. lets just hope my manager assumes it belonged to a customer...

P.S. Rachel loves me so much that she tears my idols out of magazines at work. Thanks for the Ira Glass thingy :P

helping people????

For a few hours this morning I was strongly considering joining AmeriCorps
I figured it would be a really good way to actually do something with my life and like help people and shit....make the world a better place and all that....
http://www.americorps.gov/Default.asp

then I decided it would be a bad idea. But maybe I'll change my mind again.

Afterwards I decided that my main motive for considering it was the travel aspect and proceeded to research birthright tours to Israel, a little more appealing, minus the good feeling of decreasing world suck. http://www.americorps.gov/Default.asp Not really sure I'm Jewish enough to pull it off, but I could def. stand to learn a little more before i turn 27...

Then I just felt bad about not caring enough about building houses in ghettos and helping underprivileged children learn how to read and crap in the U.S. so I looked into Peacecore a little....but thats pretty hardcore...



In other news, saw Iron Man yesterday. That shit was ridiculous. Entertaining, not as bad as I thought it was gonna be. Tonight I will see the abomination that is the live action film of Speed Racer staring Emilie Hirsch. Lets hope the hilarity makes up for it. Tomorrow is Shinning at the Loft with Rachel who has not yet seen it. bwahaha.
The Phil is out of town till monday, this makes me a little sad...His brother is taking him to vegas for the weekend, what with turning 21 and all. eh.

neverever

Yesterday I went to see this movie, Aguirre: Wrath of God, at the Loft. It was free, and very German...and about conquistadors.

It was amazing, went with the Phil, we swooned over the amazing directing together. it was so good...after which Cinco de Mayo celebrations ensued.


oh p.s.