go analog baby!

and then:

I need a new job

fucking fuck shit, i am so fucking ill its disgusting. ive got fucking body aches, fucking sore ass throat, mean fucking flemmy ass cough and sneezes all over the goddamn mother fuckin place. and i STILL have to be at work by 2. If you saw someone fitting that description would you want to p[ut your fucking 1yr old baby close to them!?!?! i think NOT!. so why do i still have to go to work!?! cuase we are understaffed that why.


im pretty sure the pure hatefulness of this blog just made its way to my boss cause she just called and got someone to cover for me by 3, looks like only a little bit of work now! yaaay :cough: bleh.

in other news Yanar moved far far away this morning and i will miss her alot...I told her i would see her in may after a long conversation we had about getting our lives to happen. We been sleep, Here's to adventures.Publish Post

right now

i hate living right now.
this is bullshit.

bullshit

This is Sean and Eva, look how cute they are!
I finally saw them tonight and gave them all their pretty wedding pictures and in exchange I got a couple hundred richer. I was scared to death that they wouldn't like their pictures, but as I sat there and we looked at them together I liked them just as much as they did, which was a huge relief.

Life will be so much better when the busy season is over and we can all go back to working only 30hrs and partying every night. Everyday I go to work and think about quitting....I'm not sure if its the environment or the people. probably both. I applied for a job tonight, cant wait to hear back, if at all.


Yanar is moving on Thursday and its devastating.

I felt you like electric light

only I wish that this coming week that hasn't even begun wasn't already the worst of my life.


the worst feeling in my opinion, at the moment is that at the time when one becomes intoxicated, but is still lucid enough to have creative thought. It may be by far the most frustrating feeling i have felt ever, nothing ever makes sense at this point...and the music does not help.

this time tomorrow, where will we be?

i am so very frustrated. don't know what to do or where to go.

fuck my life....i accidental said that in front of customers today....people assume that because they have children everyone will be happy to say them and everyone is having a blast taking pictures of them. people react as if they would honestly be happy to take picture of your ugly children. whatever. i hate everything right now, and i don't enjoy that feeling. My life feels like shit right now.i am genuinely unhappy. and possibly depressed.

today was eventful

Yanar. she didnt like this one, but its just a preview. more to come from the list of those she did like.

Happy Hanukkah!

yaaay.
i worked a whole shit ton today, but it was worth it cause i made a thousand dollar day and got a 25 cent raise.


photo shoot tomorrow and i will deff put up something from it. lawls.



life sucks.


grandma is coming to town in a few days.

I've gotta get off of this train.

Life has been really busy as of late, I feel like I've been doing everything and nothing, and working too much but neglecting my paid projects.
I really really want to quit my job and I really really want to be able to shoot more weddings. I don't want to have a shitty day job, but I don't want to leave my co-workers, at the same time though, I wouldn't miss them and I don't really care. I really just don't want to work anymore. I feel like I haven't been able to shoot for myself in ages, I haven't been in a darkroom since September and I haven't printed non commission work.....in a long long time.
I want a vacation.
My mother volunteered me recently to one of her friends, who needed a label made for products she sells on her website. This has turned into a nightmare and she is now refusing to pay me more than $75 dollars for an original logo design that took me a good 2days. whatever.
Shoot with Yanar on Wednesday, that should be interesting and somewhat creative.

I want a canon ae-1