the best parts of lonely.

i just woke up. and that really makes me feel like shit.
i woke up this morning at like... 8ish after staying up shit faced drunk till about 4:30am, when to work all day hungover. It was hellish. got off at 5, made plans to be places and see people...possibly get a tattoo....made some food cause i hadn't eaten all day...drank a beer and was gonna take a shower but instead somehow passed out and woke up at 11pm ish.
what the fuck?
i have to work at 10am, so at this point going out isnt really an option...anyway. i have 7 missed txts. none from the only person i was pretty sure i was gonna hang out with tonight....who keeps blowing me off. im probably the only one that thought we were gonna hang out anyway
whatever.
its not like i ever liked having reliable friends anyway.
i kind of feel like ive wasted my Saturday.

crying is the worst with a hangover. it makes the muscles on the sides of your face feel tight and swollen and sore all at the same time. bleh. this is a bullshit day.
i am such a fucking dumbass...seriously...like...crying aobut shit really makes me hatemyself.
wtf man?

hard drugs anyone?

well. im fucking done.