ugly fish

im so sick of boys.
like seriously. fuck that noise. how hard is it to just have a friend that you can have sex with?
oh wait...that dosnt really sound easy.
oh well.

look! heres Yanar, she is beautiful.
we have been talking a lot and i miss her tons.
Yesterday i had to write an in class essay about beauty and ugliness and its meaning and all that crap about what is ugly and experiences of beauty and people bringing beauty out in you...anyway..i found the topic a little cliche, but when i started writing i almost cried....not just cause i was so deeply moved by my own writing(hahahhahaa!) but cause i was writing about my friends and shit and i realized how much i love them....it was mostly about aly...cause we were instructed to use vivid description...and i wrote about how we met... but i mentioned alot of people.
i liked my final product.
and speaking of i actualy just saw my writing teacher, how odd.

This morning I told my mother that I felt i was a deeply unhappy person and she laughed at me. ha. wow.


off to work.