is it so so wrong?

so lets just say those tequila shots from last post didnt go over so well.

The more I learn about The Academy of Art University, and just how outlandishly fabulous it is the more I want to go, the more I learn how outlandishly expensive it is, the more it looks like I wont be able to.


http://sfbay.craigslist.org/sfc/apa/756593983.html

seriously, I want to live there. omfg. Seriously thinking about making an appointment to check that place out while im there.

So, it looks like I may be on the streets of San Francisco for the last day and a half of my trip. To be honest it excited me a little. If theres one place I'd like to be tramping about in July, its San Francisco.

ugh, I feel like there is this ominous cloud of guilt hanging over my head and I cant seem to get rid of it.strange thing is that its guilt for like... myself. there is probably a word for that but I feel the pain as if Ive wronged someone, but the someone I've wronged is me....I don't get it.

just got home from work. Rachel is at work and the boyfriend doesn't wanna hang out with me till ten....................uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh.

Sometimes I wish my life held a little more substance.

I guess its time for left overs and a couple hard shots of tequila.
fuck

you'll say that its no big deal

Today I received a message via facebook that made me remember why for a long time, or rather, for about four months I really wanted to try and stay single, at least for a while.

I'm not sure what to do about a lot of things right now, but I think I'm gonna figure some shit out tonight, and by some shit, I mean most shit. I do good with alone time.

There is a termite crawling on my door, this house is insane.

Let me tell you this that I've discovered: Getting older has not helped my ability to judge folks when I first meet em. In fact I think it may be impaired.

gots my tickets.

leave Tucson 11:45AM 21 Jul
arrive in Oakland 3:32 PM 21 Jul

frolicking in San Francisco.

leave Oakland 2:09 PM 29 Jul
arrive in Tucson 7:35 PM 29 Jul

cantwait omgsh



Today I woke up at 11am and was supposed to be at work by 9:45am...omgsh

I once had a life, or rather, life had me....

Cristina,
Close relationships are apt to be quite a handful now. The strength of your will pulls new opportunities towards you. They may not fall right into your lap, but they are within reach. Although it may seem like you are getting a raw deal, someone is actually doing you a favor.

Thank you horoscope for lifting my spirits every now and again.
just when shit gets hard and I feel like I'm making all the wrong decisions...apparently its still within my reach, anyway the rest of that sounds a little negative.

Going to San Francisco on the 20th, getting back on the 28th. These dates are subject to change in the 1-2 day range. Hopefully this will be exciting...I'm a little scared, fucking terrified actually. sleeping arrangements are sketchy as hell to say the least right now, I have no idea how I'm gonna stay alive or what I'm gonna do after I land...but we'll see. haven't been able to get a hold of Greg really, but Im sure if I show up anywhere in the bay area he'd be more than accommodating.

Phil says that he is going to go also, I'm a little scared that he's not gonna, but well...hrm, we'll see about that too.

My main concern is finances. Im pretty sure i can afford everything as long as I dont eat, and maybe stop buying cigarettes and coffee all the time.

jesus christ.

oh, and i just got this one.::


You've got to take care of some financial issues that aren't going anywhere on their own. It's a good time to tackle serious problems -- or to clear away obstacles to investment or growth.