so i just read my post from last night and apologize...i duno what i was thinking..well.
anyway today has been pretty great aside from getting peed on at work....AH! yeah, totally got peed on today. at least the woman who's son did it agreed to take home the pee blanket and wash it for us.
i think i might get a tattoo tonight! YAY!
i really shouldn't, i have a lot of homework to do and a hugely expensive camera to pay off...but i might, so there.
april is going to be crazy.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
the best parts of lonely.
i just woke up. and that really makes me feel like shit.
i woke up this morning at like... 8ish after staying up shit faced drunk till about 4:30am, when to work all day hungover. It was hellish. got off at 5, made plans to be places and see people...possibly get a tattoo....made some food cause i hadn't eaten all day...drank a beer and was gonna take a shower but instead somehow passed out and woke up at 11pm ish.
what the fuck?
i have to work at 10am, so at this point going out isnt really an option...anyway. i have 7 missed txts. none from the only person i was pretty sure i was gonna hang out with tonight....who keeps blowing me off. im probably the only one that thought we were gonna hang out anyway
whatever.
its not like i ever liked having reliable friends anyway.
i kind of feel like ive wasted my Saturday.
crying is the worst with a hangover. it makes the muscles on the sides of your face feel tight and swollen and sore all at the same time. bleh. this is a bullshit day.
i am such a fucking dumbass...seriously...like...crying aobut shit really makes me hatemyself.
wtf man?
hard drugs anyone?
well. im fucking done.
i woke up this morning at like... 8ish after staying up shit faced drunk till about 4:30am, when to work all day hungover. It was hellish. got off at 5, made plans to be places and see people...possibly get a tattoo....made some food cause i hadn't eaten all day...drank a beer and was gonna take a shower but instead somehow passed out and woke up at 11pm ish.
what the fuck?
i have to work at 10am, so at this point going out isnt really an option...anyway. i have 7 missed txts. none from the only person i was pretty sure i was gonna hang out with tonight....who keeps blowing me off. im probably the only one that thought we were gonna hang out anyway
whatever.
its not like i ever liked having reliable friends anyway.
i kind of feel like ive wasted my Saturday.
crying is the worst with a hangover. it makes the muscles on the sides of your face feel tight and swollen and sore all at the same time. bleh. this is a bullshit day.
i am such a fucking dumbass...seriously...like...crying aobut shit really makes me hatemyself.
wtf man?
hard drugs anyone?
well. im fucking done.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
i know that youre a sucker.
The boys that work at the 24 hour subway on speedway and park must think me and Rachel are some fine bitches...or something, our food is always free...or like $1.50..for both of us anyway. it rocks.
last night i drank a whole bottle of strawberry hill and got drunk and probably said something i shouldn't have to a boy that was using me. go me! oh well though, its for the better...he wasnt that interesting anyway.
today has pretty much been the shittiest ive had in a good while.
this morning i woke up at 9:40..spanish at 9:55, somehow i made it to pima by 10. and somehow in the parking lot trying to run to my class i managed to drop my zune (that i bought last week) on the asphalt and when exiting my car crunched the screen against said asphalt with my foot. it still works...but its ugly now. after this drama, walking to the classroom, juggling a pile of books in my arms my belt somehow falls off and i look down to discover that my favorite belt buckle has decided to break on me at this moment....after 2 years of a loving relation ship this belt decided it was time for the soder on the peg to break. so great. walking into my class at about 10:10 i get my exam from tuesday back from the professor with a big 49 on it.
BEST DAY EVER! after class i saw him and we talked about how he would tell me my grade next class and if its too low im gonna have to drop.
AHHHHHHHH!
at 2 i saw Korey on his lunch break, we shared some product that while in my car i discovered i had not closed the bag last time and it was ALL OVER the case. great... then we went to Safehouse spinning and i bitched about my day and ended up getting a free drink, ha. <3 Safehouse employees, it helped me feel a little better. if shit dosnt start looking up i might vomit all over myself here pretty soon.
im gonna go get some film developed, so look forward to some pictures.
last night i drank a whole bottle of strawberry hill and got drunk and probably said something i shouldn't have to a boy that was using me. go me! oh well though, its for the better...he wasnt that interesting anyway.
today has pretty much been the shittiest ive had in a good while.
this morning i woke up at 9:40..spanish at 9:55, somehow i made it to pima by 10. and somehow in the parking lot trying to run to my class i managed to drop my zune (that i bought last week) on the asphalt and when exiting my car crunched the screen against said asphalt with my foot. it still works...but its ugly now. after this drama, walking to the classroom, juggling a pile of books in my arms my belt somehow falls off and i look down to discover that my favorite belt buckle has decided to break on me at this moment....after 2 years of a loving relation ship this belt decided it was time for the soder on the peg to break. so great. walking into my class at about 10:10 i get my exam from tuesday back from the professor with a big 49 on it.
BEST DAY EVER! after class i saw him and we talked about how he would tell me my grade next class and if its too low im gonna have to drop.
AHHHHHHHH!
at 2 i saw Korey on his lunch break, we shared some product that while in my car i discovered i had not closed the bag last time and it was ALL OVER the case. great... then we went to Safehouse spinning and i bitched about my day and ended up getting a free drink, ha. <3 Safehouse employees, it helped me feel a little better. if shit dosnt start looking up i might vomit all over myself here pretty soon.
im gonna go get some film developed, so look forward to some pictures.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
ugly fish
im so sick of boys.
like seriously. fuck that noise. how hard is it to just have a friend that you can have sex with?
oh wait...that dosnt really sound easy.
oh well.
look! heres Yanar, she is beautiful.
we have been talking a lot and i miss her tons.
Yesterday i had to write an in class essay about beauty and ugliness and its meaning and all that crap about what is ugly and experiences of beauty and people bringing beauty out in you...anyway..i found the topic a little cliche, but when i started writing i almost cried....not just cause i was so deeply moved by my own writing(hahahhahaa!) but cause i was writing about my friends and shit and i realized how much i love them....it was mostly about aly...cause we were instructed to use vivid description...and i wrote about how we met... but i mentioned alot of people.
i liked my final product.
and speaking of i actualy just saw my writing teacher, how odd.
This morning I told my mother that I felt i was a deeply unhappy person and she laughed at me. ha. wow.
off to work.
like seriously. fuck that noise. how hard is it to just have a friend that you can have sex with?
oh wait...that dosnt really sound easy.
oh well.
look! heres Yanar, she is beautiful.we have been talking a lot and i miss her tons.
Yesterday i had to write an in class essay about beauty and ugliness and its meaning and all that crap about what is ugly and experiences of beauty and people bringing beauty out in you...anyway..i found the topic a little cliche, but when i started writing i almost cried....not just cause i was so deeply moved by my own writing(hahahhahaa!) but cause i was writing about my friends and shit and i realized how much i love them....it was mostly about aly...cause we were instructed to use vivid description...and i wrote about how we met... but i mentioned alot of people.
i liked my final product.
and speaking of i actualy just saw my writing teacher, how odd.
This morning I told my mother that I felt i was a deeply unhappy person and she laughed at me. ha. wow.
off to work.
Monday, March 24, 2008
shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit.
I almost got married today.
but didnt.
man, the last few days have been like... complete shit.
AAAAAAAAAAHGfkjdebhgajgvb.abglfdkbgdabgdf
fuck
man.
shit
i just dont even fucking know....but i feel like i have to talk and deal and not self medicate
and jsut get my shit together.
i almost got a tattoo today and didnt
man, i would kill for some hard drugs right now.......................
Fuck school.
but didnt.
man, the last few days have been like... complete shit.
AAAAAAAAAAHGfkjdebhgajgvb.abglfdkbgdabgdf
fuck
man.
shit
i just dont even fucking know....but i feel like i have to talk and deal and not self medicate
and jsut get my shit together.
i almost got a tattoo today and didnt
man, i would kill for some hard drugs right now.......................
Fuck school.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
and over and over
spring break is over and all i can really remember is what i can re read in this blog.
im not really sure what the hell happened.
i am really sure that i have to be at class in the morning. its gonna blow.
apparently i had homework. hahahhahahha.
last night i had a long discussion with my good friend dane about schools and the school system and why it dosnt work for people like us. It was depressing. we talked till long after safehouse had closed and listened to the spooky sounds that happen.
meerghergerbergh
im not really sure what the hell happened.
i am really sure that i have to be at class in the morning. its gonna blow.
apparently i had homework. hahahhahahha.
last night i had a long discussion with my good friend dane about schools and the school system and why it dosnt work for people like us. It was depressing. we talked till long after safehouse had closed and listened to the spooky sounds that happen.
meerghergerbergh
Friday, March 21, 2008
The sun never shines on closed doors.
Purim was grand.
Even if we were expecting more of a belligerent celebration, it was fun. The party that we thought was happening apparently was earlier in the week...fucking spring break...This being the case we drove to Young Israel to Listen to the Megillah. After the reading they fed us breakfast at 9pm, then we found a Rabbi who poured us a generous amount of scotch whiskey into a plastic cups.
We made a little movie of our journey from the east side to down town to back to central town. it was silly and long and thanks to the really crappy software that came with my new camera i cant edit it for shit. or add music...or do anything with it.
so thats coming soon...maybe if i can find some good software.
oh yeah, and that date i went on on Tuesday.....bad idea.
I just realized I've been drunk every night night (excluding Tuesday when I had that date) since last Thursday night. Plus i plan on drinking tonight. zomgz
What a fucking spring break..
Tomorrow I go back to work 10am blah.
Even if we were expecting more of a belligerent celebration, it was fun. The party that we thought was happening apparently was earlier in the week...fucking spring break...This being the case we drove to Young Israel to Listen to the Megillah. After the reading they fed us breakfast at 9pm, then we found a Rabbi who poured us a generous amount of scotch whiskey into a plastic cups.
We made a little movie of our journey from the east side to down town to back to central town. it was silly and long and thanks to the really crappy software that came with my new camera i cant edit it for shit. or add music...or do anything with it.
so thats coming soon...maybe if i can find some good software.
oh yeah, and that date i went on on Tuesday.....bad idea.
I just realized I've been drunk every night night (excluding Tuesday when I had that date) since last Thursday night. Plus i plan on drinking tonight. zomgz
What a fucking spring break..
Tomorrow I go back to work 10am blah.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
this is.
In other news I was feeling pretty depressed so I went ahead and bought both.
only 150 for the pair, pretty good if you ask me. I think my friends are witty enough to warrant me having a video camera on hand at all times.
BLEEEEEEAHGJKSBSNB;kd
I love this picture:
only 150 for the pair, pretty good if you ask me. I think my friends are witty enough to warrant me having a video camera on hand at all times.
BLEEEEEEAHGJKSBSNB;kd
I love this picture:
HAPPY PURIM!
well, shit.
its pretty early. im distressed.
should i go back to sleep or make some food?
man, this isnt cool.
I will be so pissed.
I just hope something happens soon.
oh ps, I lost all my phone numbers. new phone coming soon.
uhm. yeah. so marcella's birthday was last night...we hung out, it was cool.
got to see joey, that was cool.
woke up at seven fucking am and drove home cause she's flying to Las Vegas right now.
man i hate las vegas.
man, i love Guinness. thanks rachel.
Oh yeah, and today is Purim, so everyone better dress up and get drunk for me eh?
thats all.
its pretty early. im distressed.
should i go back to sleep or make some food?
man, this isnt cool.
I will be so pissed.
I just hope something happens soon.
oh ps, I lost all my phone numbers. new phone coming soon.
uhm. yeah. so marcella's birthday was last night...we hung out, it was cool.
got to see joey, that was cool.
woke up at seven fucking am and drove home cause she's flying to Las Vegas right now.
man i hate las vegas.
man, i love Guinness. thanks rachel.
Oh yeah, and today is Purim, so everyone better dress up and get drunk for me eh?
thats all.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
This same old mess
The last 2 days have been an amazing amount of what is way more than I am capable of processing. Going to a party at Nick Creamer's house was a little more than surreal for me. Everyone I never talked to during high school was there. Plus Rachel's co workers. This morning I woke up to find my neck covered in hickies from a boy that I haven't spoken to in 3 or more years and a vague memory of receiving them.
Oh St. Patty's time is the best time of year!
The Guinness, the whiskey, the cream. mmmmmm!
Ive been pretty drunk for a while now, last night we took a cab to the party and both ways we had large angry men listening to bad bad music.
Taking a Guinness and a cigarette in bed for breakfast is truly the only way to start ones day right.
Please pardon my lack of being able to put sentences next to each other and have them make sense.
oh.
oh man. so much family drama right now. when i got home my mom was crying and I guess her and mat got in a big fight, about his living situation and that whore thats he's letting sleep in his house. GUH!
Tomorrow is Marcella's birthday and Thursday is Purim! WOAH!
apparently a boy is going to pick me up from my house in about an hour and we're gonna eat Ethiopian food....hmmm.
Oh St. Patty's time is the best time of year!
The Guinness, the whiskey, the cream. mmmmmm!
Ive been pretty drunk for a while now, last night we took a cab to the party and both ways we had large angry men listening to bad bad music.
Taking a Guinness and a cigarette in bed for breakfast is truly the only way to start ones day right.
Please pardon my lack of being able to put sentences next to each other and have them make sense.
oh.
oh man. so much family drama right now. when i got home my mom was crying and I guess her and mat got in a big fight, about his living situation and that whore thats he's letting sleep in his house. GUH!
Tomorrow is Marcella's birthday and Thursday is Purim! WOAH!
apparently a boy is going to pick me up from my house in about an hour and we're gonna eat Ethiopian food....hmmm.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
She says: Im okay. Im alright. Though you have gone... from my life.
I love Flogging Molly, because they are just really fucking amazing, maybe my brief encounter with them in the wee hours of Saturday morning are influencing my thoughts here a little. honestly im pretty glad that happened though, i think it was a positive step in the relationship of Flogging Molly and I.
The Life Aquatic is probably my fave movie right now.
I was going to post a recap of the weekends thus far exciting events. but decided i would rather keep it in my pocket.
i havent slept in ages, tomorrow is Allen's birthday, im gonna wake up in y lik 5 hours to make blueberry muffins(btw i hate blueberry muffins) before i go to work. see how nice i am? im a great step daughter.
oh and P.S. to Rachel. Bitch is not the new black.
The Life Aquatic is probably my fave movie right now.
I was going to post a recap of the weekends thus far exciting events. but decided i would rather keep it in my pocket.
i havent slept in ages, tomorrow is Allen's birthday, im gonna wake up in y lik 5 hours to make blueberry muffins(btw i hate blueberry muffins) before i go to work. see how nice i am? im a great step daughter.
oh and P.S. to Rachel. Bitch is not the new black.
Friday, March 7, 2008
R.I.P.
Attention Tucsonians: GET OUT OF TUCSON BEFORE YOU DIE!
seriously.
just this week, David's room mate and then Melissa's boyfriend. WTF man. everyone here is dying. There have been sixteen murders in town since the beginning of 2008. Now, Davids roomate was not murdered, but he overdosed on oxy and booze, but Melissa's boyfriend was murdered. wtf, again. this really sucks alot extra than a normal murder cause she is like 4 months pregnant with his baby. and he was only 27. so sad. R.I.P. David's roommate and Melissa's boyfriend, I didnt know either of you, and its a shame that i never will.
oh and i bought a new Camera.
Canon 40D. its the new sexy.
seriously.
just this week, David's room mate and then Melissa's boyfriend. WTF man. everyone here is dying. There have been sixteen murders in town since the beginning of 2008. Now, Davids roomate was not murdered, but he overdosed on oxy and booze, but Melissa's boyfriend was murdered. wtf, again. this really sucks alot extra than a normal murder cause she is like 4 months pregnant with his baby. and he was only 27. so sad. R.I.P. David's roommate and Melissa's boyfriend, I didnt know either of you, and its a shame that i never will.
oh and i bought a new Camera.
Canon 40D. its the new sexy.
There is and axis of evil rolling into this neighborhood!
Last night i had a really short and really fucked up dream. but i dont feel like typing out so im gonna copy and past a convo with rachel about it.
i just spent along time on a nerdfighters blog response to korey, so im gonna copy and paste the list part of it.
I'll take your Top ten albums in no particular order and raise you top ten songs in no particular order! When you post your top ten songs repost your updated album list above it (if it changes like you said it might), but do it in a new blog post. I will change mine too, im sure, but i think it will be interesting to see the evolution of your lists rather than just editing over it.
1. Cloud Cult - Meaning of 8
2. Two Gallants - what the tole tells
3. Bright Eyes - Fevers and Mirrors
4. My Chemical Romance - I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love
5. Neutral Milk Hotel - Aeroplane Over The Sea
6. Brand New - Deja Entendu
7. Radiohead - OK Computer
8. The Postal Service - Give Up
9. The National - Alligator
10. Nirvana - MTV unplugged in New York
1. Cloud Cult - Breakfast with my Shadow
2. Two Gallants - Reflections of the Marionette
3. The Paper Chase - Said the Spider to the Fly
4. The Mountain Goats - This Year
5. Neutral Milk Hotel - Aeroplane Over The Sea
6. Golden Shoulders - I Will Light You On Fire
7. REM - Losing my Religion
8. Jimmy Eat World - Goodbye Sky Harbor
9. The Mars Volta - Televators
10. Timothy Rabbit - Long Distances
anyway this post is way long looking now so ill just write about what i was originally gonna write about in a new post yay!
maybeima unicorn (12:37:11 PM) : i had a fucked up dream last night
maybeima unicorn (12:37:19 PM) : so she was interpreting
rachelwedig (12:37:24 PM) : oh?
rachelwedig (12:39:50 PM) : what was the dream
maybeima unicorn (12:40:10 PM) : i was in the back room of my house ad i was walking out side
maybeima unicorn (12:40:16 PM) : and then chloe bolted out
maybeima unicorn (12:40:40 PM) : so i left the sliding door open and went to catch her and throw her back in
maybeima unicorn (12:41:10 PM) : and then i noticed there were like 3 kittens inside
maybeima unicorn (12:41:15 PM) : and thought oh thats strange
maybeima unicorn (12:41:23 PM) : and tossed chloe back in
maybeima unicorn (12:41:39 PM) : i stepped backwards and felt something crunch
maybeima unicorn (12:41:54 PM) : but ignored it while i slammed the door shut
maybeima unicorn (12:42:09 PM) : then i realized there were tiny baby kittens everywhere
maybeima unicorn (12:42:10 PM) : like
maybeima unicorn (12:42:17 PM) : so yourng they didnt have fur
maybeima unicorn (12:42:23 PM) : and thier eyes were closed
maybeima unicorn (12:42:30 PM) : and i slammed one in the door
maybeima unicorn (12:42:35 PM) : and it was bleeding everywhere
maybeima unicorn (12:42:50 PM) : and i looked behind me and i stepped on ones head and it was oozing
maybeima unicorn (12:42:51 PM) : and
maybeima unicorn (12:42:59 PM) : then i realiezed there were even more
maybeima unicorn (12:43:01 PM) : everywhere
maybeima unicorn (12:43:02 PM) : like
maybeima unicorn (12:43:04 PM) : all over
maybeima unicorn (12:43:09 PM) : and they were all crying
maybeima unicorn (12:43:13 PM) : and hurt
rachelwedig (12:43:15 PM) : jesus
maybeima unicorn (12:43:21 PM) : and i couldnt move or i would crush more of them
maybeima unicorn (12:43:27 PM) : and i couldnt help them
maybeima unicorn (12:43:31 PM) : and it was vjsdfkbgdf
maybeima unicorn (12:43:36 PM) : then i woke up
maybeima unicorn (12:43:53 PM) : i was pretty intense
maybeima unicorn (12:43:57 PM) : to say the least
rachelwedig (12:44:26 PM) : awww i'm sorry that would make me very upset
maybeima unicorn (12:44:45 PM) : it was pretty upsetting
i guess thats not really a conversation as much as me freaking out. but there you have it.i just spent along time on a nerdfighters blog response to korey, so im gonna copy and paste the list part of it.
I'll take your Top ten albums in no particular order and raise you top ten songs in no particular order! When you post your top ten songs repost your updated album list above it (if it changes like you said it might), but do it in a new blog post. I will change mine too, im sure, but i think it will be interesting to see the evolution of your lists rather than just editing over it.
1. Cloud Cult - Meaning of 8
2. Two Gallants - what the tole tells
3. Bright Eyes - Fevers and Mirrors
4. My Chemical Romance - I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love
5. Neutral Milk Hotel - Aeroplane Over The Sea
6. Brand New - Deja Entendu
7. Radiohead - OK Computer
8. The Postal Service - Give Up
9. The National - Alligator
10. Nirvana - MTV unplugged in New York
1. Cloud Cult - Breakfast with my Shadow
2. Two Gallants - Reflections of the Marionette
3. The Paper Chase - Said the Spider to the Fly
4. The Mountain Goats - This Year
5. Neutral Milk Hotel - Aeroplane Over The Sea
6. Golden Shoulders - I Will Light You On Fire
7. REM - Losing my Religion
8. Jimmy Eat World - Goodbye Sky Harbor
9. The Mars Volta - Televators
10. Timothy Rabbit - Long Distances
anyway this post is way long looking now so ill just write about what i was originally gonna write about in a new post yay!
Sunday, March 2, 2008
jump back in the window
I'm sorry ladies, I received 3 comments on my last post and didn't really know what to think of them. maybe I'm just thick, but i just wasn't sure...except that Rachel is a silly drunk.
Anyway, I'm pretty sure I've finally decided on what i would like to get tattooed on me. can i get some honest feedback? as far as placement i was thinking back of left shoulder sounds pretty cute and i like the design cause i think it could hold a lot of meaning on several levels. but im not go
ing into that right now.
I was thinking i would kind of draw up my own thing from these 3 
pictures. the last is kind of my fave, it has great detail on the leaves. I either want this really big or relatively small, im thinking a good quarter of my back though.
Who else is so excited about the new cloud cult?! they have a new song up on thier myspace, and on my myspace now. its gonna be called Feel Good Ghosts (Tea-Partying Through Tornadoes). So many amazing bands are being active right now, its great, i feel like i cant keep up.
OH! oh, P. fucking S.... so guess who has a date friday night? oh, guess, i dare you. HAHAHAH!
thats all, goodnight ladies.
oh P.P.S. happy birthday to Andrea Peralta, Jordan Ross and Tony Wendall who's bithdays are tomorrow-in a few hours and happy birthday to my bffl Korey Sargent whos birthday is tuesday-in a few hours plus 24 more.
Anyway, I'm pretty sure I've finally decided on what i would like to get tattooed on me. can i get some honest feedback? as far as placement i was thinking back of left shoulder sounds pretty cute and i like the design cause i think it could hold a lot of meaning on several levels. but im not go
ing into that right now.
I was thinking i would kind of draw up my own thing from these 3 
pictures. the last is kind of my fave, it has great detail on the leaves. I either want this really big or relatively small, im thinking a good quarter of my back though.Who else is so excited about the new cloud cult?! they have a new song up on thier myspace, and on my myspace now. its gonna be called Feel Good Ghosts (Tea-Partying Through Tornadoes). So many amazing bands are being active right now, its great, i feel like i cant keep up.
OH! oh, P. fucking S.... so guess who has a date friday night? oh, guess, i dare you. HAHAHAH!
thats all, goodnight ladies.
oh P.P.S. happy birthday to Andrea Peralta, Jordan Ross and Tony Wendall who's bithdays are tomorrow-in a few hours and happy birthday to my bffl Korey Sargent whos birthday is tuesday-in a few hours plus 24 more.
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