God forgive my tasteless tongue.

It's really less about morals and more about pride for someone like me.
At first I really did have problems with letting my friends help me out (Greg and Phil) when I told them that I wanted to go to San Francisco to check out a school and maybe live there next year. Greg even up and offered me a place to live almost completely rent free. Phil offered to pay for many expenses such a visit might require. My first reactions were thankful and being amazed that these people would care enough to be so generous, but I realize that this gesture is so possible for both of them that I cannot even begin to understand. I realize that neither of these boys work for their money, but I do think that they are both genuinely kind people, at least.
Anyway, It was these kinds of thoughts that led me to the conclusion that this is really the only way I will ever be able to accomplish such things, or see if this whole moving to San Francisco thing is really what I want to do. And if my friends are willing to help me try to better my life because they know that I don't exactly have the kind of money it takes to help myself, then by all means, thank you sooo much! I accept. At the same time I feel like this is something I want to do myself and I would feel terrible having my boyfriend of two months pay for big parts of a trip thats gonna help me decide my future but if this is how I'm gonna be able to do it at all...I kinda feel like it would be stupid to pass up such an opportunity.

well. at least I think I've made up my mind for a while.

ALSO!
Tucson just got a little better and Ill tell you why: Yanar is back. I dont think i can even begin to tell you how happy this makes me.