I once had a life, or rather, life had me....

Cristina,
Close relationships are apt to be quite a handful now. The strength of your will pulls new opportunities towards you. They may not fall right into your lap, but they are within reach. Although it may seem like you are getting a raw deal, someone is actually doing you a favor.

Thank you horoscope for lifting my spirits every now and again.
just when shit gets hard and I feel like I'm making all the wrong decisions...apparently its still within my reach, anyway the rest of that sounds a little negative.

Going to San Francisco on the 20th, getting back on the 28th. These dates are subject to change in the 1-2 day range. Hopefully this will be exciting...I'm a little scared, fucking terrified actually. sleeping arrangements are sketchy as hell to say the least right now, I have no idea how I'm gonna stay alive or what I'm gonna do after I land...but we'll see. haven't been able to get a hold of Greg really, but Im sure if I show up anywhere in the bay area he'd be more than accommodating.

Phil says that he is going to go also, I'm a little scared that he's not gonna, but well...hrm, we'll see about that too.

My main concern is finances. Im pretty sure i can afford everything as long as I dont eat, and maybe stop buying cigarettes and coffee all the time.

jesus christ.

oh, and i just got this one.::


You've got to take care of some financial issues that aren't going anywhere on their own. It's a good time to tackle serious problems -- or to clear away obstacles to investment or growth.

I'll fight like hell, to hide that I'm giving up.

Saw Yanar today and heard some crazy ass stories about living on the streets of Greece, she amazes me.

Starting to get the feeling that I've been working way too much lately, though I get a day or two off every week, it always gets spent in some less than enjoyable way.

I'm feeling unhappy lately.
I don't like that.


In response to my last post, here is my horoscope for today, the 29th:
Leo Horoscope
Cristina,
At times like this, it's important to remember what keeps you honest and human. The world around you benefits from your happiness and enthusiasm. Spread your energy to others and they will look fondly upon you. Movement in any direction could be uncomfortable, but you mustn't remain motionless.

I feel motionless lately, and extremely unenthusiastic.
Goal for this week : change that.

lets see if it happens.

First step I suppose will be deciding on a date to get my movement headed towards San Francisco.


Working is hard.
Working is especially hard when you're there all day.
Working is especially hard when you're there all day and by the time you're off you have at least 5 different people asking to hang out with you alone.

Its hard to make time for everyone and as much as I would like to spend time with every single person I love and have "you and me time" it really is really fucking hard. =(
I feel like I'm slowly growing apart from all of my friends.
I feel like I haven't hung out with Jacob in a billion years, I feel like I don't see Marcella enough and she is totally depressed right now and I want to help her out. I NEVER see Korey anymore which hurts my soul, I feel like I don't spend enough time with Rachel, don't see my boyfriend as much as I'd like, Mat is an uncommon sight as well, not to mention Yanar's return to town, I'm missing the hell out of Aly but there's not much I can do about that...and let's be honest, I'd really like to hang out with my mom.


I know, I know...what selfish bullshit to be complaining about, but you know what this is my blog and I'll write about the bullshit I want and i'll loose sleep over not being able to satiate all of my friends...so there.


I'm so done.


good fucking night.

Lord knows i could make amends

Sometimes I forget I live in the desert, I've been here so long it feels like its all that exists, and not in a good way. Today is cold, Valentine's day. The wind is strong and gusty, bad chi. I was driving home from class today and while taking a short cut through a neighborhood I was kindly reminded of where I am by a little tumbleweed blowing in the street. I almost want to go back and collect him, he could be my Valentine; with my luck though, he's already moved on.
my horoscope:
Thursday, February 14:

Today is for friends. Put aside your quest for love for a bit and spend your time catching up with loved ones -- as you share your hopes, your crazy dating stories and your future plans, everything will become clearer.

honestly, what kind of Leo does astrology.com think I am?
But the horoscope that I get sent to me daily via text message says that a gorgeous stranger will enter my life today! Maybe that was Mr. Tumbleweed...

In exciting news ALY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY