Be my little bayyybeee

so about an hour ago, I received an email response from a job that I applied for about this time last year...wtf?

anyway, I went to their site and did the thingies and the stuff and apparently they will contact me to go to a photographers orientation soon. so thats pretty cool I guess.

here is a mini mix for Aly:
(and when i say mini what i really mean is that I had several drafts of a really epic mix that was like... fuckin awesome man...and i kept accidentally closing the tab it was in and losing it...usually the effect of having imbibed...but it really was epic, but then i found this cover of be my baby by we are scientists and decided instead to make a little mix about how much i love aly and why im so glad i hitched my apple wagon to her star)


SeeqPod - Playable Search
i know, i know first day of my life is a little cliche.....but i felt it was appropriate

omfg
neeeeeeeeeeeeed to leaaave the houuououououououuuooouuuuuuuuuuuse. =(

who am i to claim such moral heights?

if i let you down, it wasn't me, but you, who kept me 'round...
and if you should feel betrayed... it wasn't me, but you who made me stay.

work was so hard today, i haven't worked a busy Saturday alone in a good six months or more.
my arms are all sore from lifting children all day. at the same time my head is spinning from having to make happy sounds and my throat hurts from yaying and cooing to babies =(
pros= 36 hours this week

some asshole scheduled a 7 o clock appointment online today... i seriously felt like i was gonna kill a bitch when i saw it appear on the books at around 4pm. (we close at 7)


Aly: i was working on this really great mix for you for like 3 days...and when i was one craigslist the other day i totally accidentally deleted it =( but i promise promise promise it will be up soon

whatever it is you think you are....

omgsh.

stealing internet in the new house, listening to death of winter mix that Korey gave me months ago, its fucking beautiful.
I miss Korey
I miss Aly in France
I miss Rachel in Santa Monica =(

I am going to see Helio Sequince at Club Congress tonight with Marcella cause the Phil dosnt wanna go, which is really too bad.

I just left safehouse about an hour ago right after getting off work, I ran into Korey and we had a conversation that was any thing but cheerful, it made me sad, and i fucking miss him. I never thought it would be this hard either.

Work is crazy, we lost like 5 people in the past week. Overtime here i come!

its been crazy, to say the least.
off to congress...

I miss the boredom and the freedom and the time spent alone.

Well its good to know my piercings will never heal. ever. any of them. and when they finally do, or even start looking like they are gonna...I will either sleep on them or get punched in one. huzzah. I love waking up with shooting pain! stupid piercings.

Got called into work today, which is fine. my boss called me while I was still in bed. I could really use more hours.

Monday morning I figured it would be a good idea to drop Spanish... So I now have Tuesdays and Thursdays completely free of school and work, but not for long, Im thinking of picking up afternoon shifts at speedway if Vicky will allow it. but having a day off on Tuesday was totally intense and amazing.

Went on a second date last night with a boy who I swear cant be more than an inch taller than me. ha. we listened to The Doors in his car and drove to foothills mall from the U of A to see the worst movie ever. I'm not sure I'll see him again...he's not very smart, plus im pretty sure he smokes a lot of pot and just hasn't told me. He said that he used to smoke a lot in high school and hasn't "in a while" a while probably meaning since he left his house.

Completely forgot about a whole lot of math homework I have due tomorrow until right now.
shit. lets hope Valencia dosnt have any appointments this afternoon. Should be able to get it done.

Coffee with a 25 year old photographer tonight...hhmmm, too old?

ugly fish

im so sick of boys.
like seriously. fuck that noise. how hard is it to just have a friend that you can have sex with?
oh wait...that dosnt really sound easy.
oh well.

look! heres Yanar, she is beautiful.
we have been talking a lot and i miss her tons.
Yesterday i had to write an in class essay about beauty and ugliness and its meaning and all that crap about what is ugly and experiences of beauty and people bringing beauty out in you...anyway..i found the topic a little cliche, but when i started writing i almost cried....not just cause i was so deeply moved by my own writing(hahahhahaa!) but cause i was writing about my friends and shit and i realized how much i love them....it was mostly about aly...cause we were instructed to use vivid description...and i wrote about how we met... but i mentioned alot of people.
i liked my final product.
and speaking of i actualy just saw my writing teacher, how odd.

This morning I told my mother that I felt i was a deeply unhappy person and she laughed at me. ha. wow.


off to work.

rejoice.

So, today was pretty shitty. While I am still recovering from Saturday night and Sundays horrific hangover...I went to school late today, told my teacher it was cause I had a doctors appointment....He was worried about me, I've been sick for a while.
Hung out with Korey today, that was fun at last... he has friends way cooler than me now, cool friends that hate me. Whatever, he found a place to live that is about ten million times closer than he is now. Yay. This picture is old...but I kinda like it. lawl...
This weekend I went to Flagstaff, I traveled alone and felt like my own little indie movie on the bus. Pretty lame. But the music was good, the reading was better and I got to sit alone for over half of my trip. Staying with Aly was pretty much amazing, even if there was a whole lot of roommate drama. She introduced me to some extremely awesome ladies that she's bringing to town this Friday I believe, excellent. This weekend (in no particular order) I: Smoked a lot, stood in the snow for too long, did a lot of blow, had wet feet, bought beer illegally from a gas station(kind of), took a lot of pictures of prancing gay boys, drank a lot, messed around with a vaguely (but not too) cute Jewish boy, watched a French film in a library, loved Aly, met a fellow Nerd Fighter, got way too drunk, walked alone in an unfamiliar city while really drunk, had my first true hangover, drank in the morning to relieve it, had a half hour nose bleed, toasted with some sorority girls I didn't know(they were walking when I was), and didn't have my heart explode. It was fun.

My mom gave me a lot of bullshit today...out of nowhere. About shit that im already aware of, as Nico would say "Please don't confront me with my failures, I have not forgotten them"



So help me lord, I am so going to re-create this photo, but its gonna be me chugging that boones farm. Maybe not in a tux, but it will be classy shit.

School is kicking my ass... still...

Lord knows i could make amends

Sometimes I forget I live in the desert, I've been here so long it feels like its all that exists, and not in a good way. Today is cold, Valentine's day. The wind is strong and gusty, bad chi. I was driving home from class today and while taking a short cut through a neighborhood I was kindly reminded of where I am by a little tumbleweed blowing in the street. I almost want to go back and collect him, he could be my Valentine; with my luck though, he's already moved on.
my horoscope:
Thursday, February 14:

Today is for friends. Put aside your quest for love for a bit and spend your time catching up with loved ones -- as you share your hopes, your crazy dating stories and your future plans, everything will become clearer.

honestly, what kind of Leo does astrology.com think I am?
But the horoscope that I get sent to me daily via text message says that a gorgeous stranger will enter my life today! Maybe that was Mr. Tumbleweed...

In exciting news ALY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

goodnight, g'night.

This weekend was an adventure, and not because I did a lot of things I have never before(but I did a few), because thats not true at all. What I can say that is the truth is that I have not been as happy as I was this weekend in a very long time. I can't say if it was the amazing company or the clean air that did it...maybe it had only to do with the absurd amount of braincells I've killed in the past week or so...either way I didn't feel as wretchedly negative and hateful as usual, it was nice.
Seeing Jordan Ross on Saturday was a lot of fun for me even though the party was a little questionable at first. Speaking of, I don't care what anyone says, I think he's a quality person and thoroughly enjoyable. so there.
Getting my nose pierced on Sunday didn't hurt at all but I think my nose might be made of magic.
Going to Sedona was lots of fun too, I like Aly's friends, they aren't shitty like Tucson people.

...Coming home today was one of the more depressing things to happen this year...so far. After being way too excited to move to Flag and go to school and have a life instead of rotting in Tucson I tried to share some fun info with my mom about NAU; she pretty much brushed me off and made me feel totally unimportant...which she is great at. She is so selfish sometimes, I wish she could just be happy for me instead of forcibly changing the subject to something about her business plan or her latest discovery...I don't even try to bring it up that often. Well that sucked and then i found out that my cat managed to get bit by a spider in the garage and looks like he has elephantiasis of the face, he makes me want to cry. I hope he lives through the night so that I can take him to the cat hospital tomorrow...he needs to hydrate and refuses to drink...


wtf, I have school tomorrow?

Yes this is my life, and yes you should care.

I am moving to flagstaff.
I know that this has already been established, but this time when i say it I mean. I am moving to Flagstaff.

hopefully this will take place after December holidays, but before the new year.

I will attend a community college as a freshman while being surrounded my sophomores and Juniors at the University. I will know no one but the one I love. I am leaving for her.
This place has become too little and not enough for me.

I went to a kind of crazy Halloween party on Friday and was dubbed designated bar wench by the home owner. I was a pirate and I'm a good server, so it worked out. Smoked weed for the first time in a good few years, cant say i enjoyed that, boyfriend threw up all over the bathroom and some punk ass little Nazi teenagers had the fucking balls to call one of my best friends a kike. that little coward was lucky that no blood was shed, i was packing brass knuckles and a blade, Mike had hunting knife and his bad ass cowboy attitude.

it will be good to see Aly next week.